Answered prayer

In the beginning of all this craziness, I lost a lot friends because they couldn't handle the cancer. Some were just not mature enough to understand the weight of what cancer is, some just walked away, and some well I had to walk away because they were too negative. And negative people give me hives. 

There was one person in perticular I was upset over losing. Mostly because they claimed we were such good friends and had offered to help. They never made good on their offers. Well sort of. Their offers came with odd conditions and just not helpful for someone running back and forth from radiation, doctor appointments and trying to work. They also just said hurtful things and I couldn't take it anymore. 

But as I have learned in my experience God always has a better plan. He often prunes us and our lives to remove the "dead branches" so we can grow to become better people. It's a process that is always for our good and His glory. It's often painful and can be hard to deal with when we are being "pruned". 

However when God removes something, He usually replaces it with something much better. It's not always the same thing, it may be in the form of more time with our loved ones or an opportunity we might not of otherwise had. 

God knew I would get cancer. He allowed it to happen--while I don't know all the reasons why, I'm learning what some are. One lesson is removing people from my life that were no longer part of His plan for me. God also knew the people I would need to keep me encouraged--especially on a daily basis. He knew I needed a good friend that would let me be myself--warts and all. He knew I would need someone that would be able to be there when I would need someone the most. 

I was still feeling a tad bit bitter about the good friend I had lost over this. I was sad I didn't have a "good friend" that was helping me through this. Then it hit me. I did! 

This person has been a huge cheerleader for me. They have orchestrated different surprises that mean so much to me. They broke some rules trying to bring me good coffee during chemo. They always offer to help me in some way when they see me struggling with different things. Always willing to hug me! Can tell I'm having a rough go and even tell when I'm not. They have even gone out of their way to show me support. 

I am truly blessed they are in my life. God placed them right when I needed them. Had he not "pruned" the other person there would not have been room for them. It makes sense now. I am able to move forward and be thankful for another answer to prayer--the much needed friend to help me through this. 

I don't know what I would do without them. 

I don't know what I'd do without the members of my team. Those that I know I can count on and have encouraged me in some way through this have done so much to help me. I'm truly blessed.