With a little help from my friends

 

My personality very much aligns with my birth sign. I saw this and it was fitting for what I am going through right now. I hate asking for help for many reasons. In my experience I have been let down from people that said they would help and did not. I have experienced those that offered to help and when I took them up on it did it begrudgingly. I have experienced the rare times when people really do want to help and are happy to do so! I also have hard time asking for help when I do need it because I don't want to inconvenience anyone nor do I want to appear weak or entitled.

 

I have learned since my cancer battle began, asking and accepting help is something I have been working on. I am nowhere near where I could be, but I am getting better. I also keep telling myself if there is one time in your life to accept help, getting cancer is it!

 

I live in a very snow-heavy area. It's not so bad when the roads are plowed and those you depend on to plow your driveway actually do it. Last week we got more snow. Which lead to our side street being pretty well covered and a mess in my driveway. My mini, the beast she is, made it through the streets, but just as I turned into my driveway, my passenger side tire got stuck in huge pile of snow. I cried. I tried to get my mini out myself and used a shovel--I have already been told never do that again by loved ones, so I won't--and cried so more. Cue The Beatles, "Help".

 

I posted my lot on Facebook. Sure enough I got a call from a friend offering to help. Ugh. Now what. I need help. But I don't want to inconvenience anyone, nor did I want anyone to get stuck on our unplowed neck of the woods. Being the awesome friends they are, they didn't listen to me when I said I would wait for my husband. They told me they were coming over to help. Shoveled my driveway, and pushed my roller skate car out of the snow. I was able to tuck the Mimzy Mobile into her garage.

 

I think for me the "just do it" approach is easier to handle. I need help and friends want to help me. This way I can't say no! Smart on their part! LOL

 

I was also told just before going into chemo, accepting help is allowing others to be a blessing to me. If I don't let them help, I am stealing that opportunity from them. I try to remember that. I don't want to steal that experience from someone. I can also imagine Jesus saying to me, you needed help and I sent all these people and you told them no! Yeah, like I said I am a work in progress. And hopefully when I get my strength back (think remission!) I will be able to help others like so many have helped me.