My mission in REMISSION!

I couldn't wait for the results so I called to see if I could get in sooner. Sure enough they got me in the day after I called.

The night before my appointment I had a very vivid dream in which my deceased grandfather came to visit me. No one else could see him but me. He told me he was there because he knew I needed him. He told me he was proud of my faith and that is what would give me strength. He told me to keep believing and stay grounded in my faith. Just like he would when he was here on earth, he told me everything was going to turn out alright.He held my hand until it was time for him to go. The odd thing is it felt very real, more like I was half sleeping and half dreaming when this happened.

I needed that visit from him. I needed that encouragement. I truly do trust God with this battle with cancer, even when I am anxious or scared. Something deep inside of me refuses to give up the faith. From the very beginning God has asked me to trust him. So I have.

Getting my results was another test of faith. The nurse came in and took my vitals and left. I told God I trust him. He knows the results and he has a plan. I trust his plan regardless of the outcome.

The doctor came in. This was it!


I AM IN REMISSION!!!!! The chemo combo had worked! I still will receive infusion therapies of Herceptin and prejeta until the doctor says otherwise. I have started the infamous tamoxifen--which I have learned I can't take it at night or I end up with a Netflix marathon. I have noticed an increase of joint pain. I am taking triple strength glucosamine twice a day to hopefully help with this. Until I get enough in my system, I take some pain meds when it's unbearable. My energy is still zapped from chemo and more than likely from the med change. Hopefully my energy will begin to increase so I can also start working on this terrible weight gain from the steroids and chemo. I have been told to ease into my new normal because the chemo is still in my body and will be for a while. I will eventually get my energy back--yay! But I am alive!

The day before I got my results a friend had shared with me something her pastor told her. He had said that cancer was the pathway God chose for her to share his love and her faith. I believe that to be true for me as well. He is not finished with me yet.


February 3, 2015---The day I beat cancer!